Fed Up...

Well, you have nosy people everywhere but I never expect one will allow oneself to be petty enough to be enslaved in order to spy/gather information for other people

In fact, don't you guys have other beneficial things to do?

Seriously, I have enough of you guys...

Do Pretend and continue imagining that you are the Heaven's permanent residents

but as long as you are spreading lies and saying bad things, I guess people can infer on their own what kind of people you are.

I pray that God will help me to find peace in myself. I've too many things on my plate.

It’s for real!

 

 

So, I was posted to one of the SBPs in Perak on the 17th January.

I was excited and nervous as well once I stepped on the school’s compound.

I can say that I’m totally grateful that I’ve finally gotten my job for REAL

One good thing after another. Now, I’ll just have to bear the ups and downs until

I receive my salary.

 

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My Oh My…Posting result

 

I will be posted soon.

This 16th January.

I am anxious.

Because they haven’t specified the exact school or state.

I only know that I will be serving in any one of boarding schools (SBP) in Malaysia.

 

Counting my blessings

 

Yes, I’ve been emotionally disturbed lately. I’ve been thinking of what the haters think and do, which made me felt even more sad and tormented. Now, I would like to try to count my blessings. Something that they do not have or appreciate. Small things that should make me feel grateful and happy with God’s gifts.

1. I have my MOTHER.
2. I have a good stepDAD.
3. I have a loving BROTHER.
4. I have two houses in two states.
5. I have CATS to ease down my rage and loneliness.
6. I have a good AUNTY who cares about my wellbeing.
7. I have good friends who supports me with worthy advice (not flaring me up with more hatred)
8. I’ve finished my degree.
9. I have one or two stepsiblings who might be neutral about the issue I’m facing. Thus, no awkward treatment from them.
10. I’m physically able to do things that I want.
11. I have food to eat.
12. I have a brain to think wisely.
13. I have my own driving license which I earned using my OWN money. (no cable or wire involved ;p)
14. I have feelings to make me feel more human.
15. I have found SOMEONE to hold my hands sincerely when I thought I might be drowned in the sea full of sharks.

and the list continues in my heart…..

I know it’s hard to soften and console this little heart but I really hope this works, apart from praying to God.