Cookies of Heart

I have never thought I can cook. Ever!

As time goes by, I am indulging myself more & better in this art.

C'est la vie! A girl does what a girl supposes to do...;)

I experimented a lot of recipes. Seriously, I am not good in listening to mum.

I am so technical & need to be guided like a baby...geez I hate myself for that!

However, this one experiment turns into a hobby or should I say "obsession",

when I baked my own chocolate cookies.

I'm a fan of Famous Amos so I have been trying till today to get the right taste, the right flavour & etc.

I battered , got tired, and had different kind of experiences each time I bake them.

Just having to think of the effort I need to invest sometimes make me unenthusiastic but

it is the craving and of course the feeling of pure satisfaction & pleasure of having to taste the cookies,

that changes everything. So, it has been a few semester breaks that I have been involved with this 'project'.

Indeed, I am so glad I spend quality time during my holidays. Not only I get to improve my baking skills, I also find that I am training myself to endure the hard work by not giving up, just because I feel lazy.

In fact, it is the taste of my own handmade that symbolizes the involvement of my effort, sacrifices, trickling sweats, electricity & the faces of my cats that long to eat them with me. ( well, sorry darlings..you guys have your own biscuits!)

Other than the feeling of pleasure, it is also a way for me to show my love and gaining my comfort. I kept myself busy for a little while and when the cookies are ready, I serve them to the ones I love or be alone enjoying them and be lost in my own world of tranquillity amongst the chocolate chips & cookie crumbs.

However, can relationship be dealt with as easy as baking or cooking? Can I just sacrifice what I needed and put more effort in order to make it work? I hope so. But sometimes, some conflicts are like the burnt crumbs, we just can't eat it to taste the deliciousness of the cookies. If it is seriously critical, we need to throw it or give it to the chickens.(haha..;p)

So, each time I face them, I try my very best & giving my endless effort to be in good terms with them. Though I know, people may not appear like what they seem to be. Hypocrites...huh! ( well, guess I am doing that a lot now...or should I level down my scepticism towards them?)

Nevertheless, I do look forward for a better outcome for the family. Like the cookies, all of us are gathered together from different kinds of behaviours, attitudes, perceptions, age, & etc. I just hope through time, the baking can produce a delicious and worth eating cookies before it is too late.

Chant of the day:

Cookies of heart,

Cookies of soul,

Let this be an art,

To seek some peace & lessen my foul.

Yours truely,

N3xierra